The second month of 2013 is already over--one sixth of the year gone! And I don't feel like I have really gotten my footing established in the year yet.
Normally I have some yearly goals. This year? Nada. Zip. Zilch. I said I wanted to spend the year learning to love myself--and if I could figure out how to do that, it would likely be a reasonable goal, but so far, one-sixth of the year is gone and I am no closer to discovering that than I was on January 1.
It isn't that I haven't thought about goals, because I have spent a great deal of time trying to figure out "what I want to be when I grow up." Things I used to think were really important or would be an ideal way to make a difference no longer hold appeal or even seem that great on the idea scale.
I am mostly happy with my life, but it feels sort of ineffectual and nonproductive for the most part. I do my few household chores, fix meals fairly frequently, and scroll through my Facebook and blog lists keeping up with a few people. I occasionally write letters, send out birthday cards and try to let people I love know they are special. I pray for them as well, but not as much as I probably should.
I am not doing anything big with my life. I am not really involved closely with any children to make a significant difference in their lives, nor even any adults other than the immediate family who I either live with or who lives nearby. I don't have a job outside the home, and in fact so rarely even leave home that it feels foreign to me a lot of times. When I do go out now, it is with Ornery. My mealy efforts at self-employment net less than what I spend to produce a salable product.
So, what shall I do? Allow the rest of the year to pass in this same ineffectual lazy pattern? How can I get out of this rut I am in? I know that the empty nest phase of life for a homemaker can be a really uncertain time or it can be the beginning of a new and wonderful opportunity. I am looking for the latter, because I have already been doing the former and am not so interested in spending the next several years there.
Maybe I will spend the afternoon with my journal and see what I can come up with. March first, you don't scare me!
Have you heard about the A to Z Blogging Challenge? It's during the month of April, and there's still time to sign up. On April 1st you start with the letter "A" and write "B" the next day and so on. You can write about anything you want, and it's a great way to meet bloggers from all over the world. Just google the A to Z April Blogging Challenge to find out more. Hope this helps. I tried to follow you, but couldn't find the button. I'll check back.
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Hey, Julie! I read about the A to Z blogging challenge on your blog and have already signed up. I am really looking forward to it. I used to do Thursday 13 years ago (on another blog) but since we moved (2011) I haven't done any blog hops.
DeleteAs for following my blog, there used to be a follow button at the top of the page, but it is gone from Blogger now. I noticed you have a followers gadget on your blog, but I don't see it in my gadget list, either, only one for Google+. So, you can go to your reading list in Blogger and select the "Add" button and paste my url in and it will show up on your list.
I look forward to getting better acquainted over the coming months!
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I'm glad you've signed up. I'll try adding your url over the weekend.
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